Plain plain useless... AM supposed to be productive today but i ended up sinking in self depression. Totally useless. 没用没用没用！我真的是很没用！！！！！！！！！I already knew i am f-ing running out of time and there i am depressing and wasting my damn precious time. Time to wake up ziai... If you dont want to waste all your hard work from jc climbing all the way to where you are now, its time to stop drowning in self-pity and pull up your socks. You are useless but not stupid. Please remember what you always believed in. HARD WORK WILL ALWAYS PAY OFF... It has always been the case in jc, isnt it? 就相信多一次！相信所付出的努力是会有回报的！我不甘心在这里才跌一跤。。。
 我的心情好不容易才好起来。。。 你的那一句话又让它跌回去了。。。
yes it officially went even worse...
... limziai, just shut your mouth up no matter what and everything will be good...
and you have to remind youself never, ever make that same mistake you always make, please...
you always make that same mistake even though you have made it thousands of times, you never learn but please do now... got enough things to think alr, there is no need for another thing... AND please never, ever think of that bad habit anymore...